been thinking of this as my “asshole blog”
for maybe the last ~3 minutes
rehash of old ‘reasurring blog post’. wish i didn’t do it in all caps, seems dumb in all caps
NOTHING YOU CAN EVER DO OR THINK OR SAY WILL EVER BE GOOD OR BAD OR RELEVANT TO THE VAST MAJORITY OF THE INFINITE AMOUNT OF INFORMATION IN EXISTENCE
goddogs asked: I like hot luggy. I saw them in my music and got really confused so I listened to it and then said oh hey ed and derek cool kids yeah
awe thanks maia! must have gotten it from http://hotluggy.bandcamp.com
I’m convinced that I’m becoming increasingly inarticulate.
Being inarticulate is my biggest fear and I feel like I’m inarticulate so I feel like I’m afraid of absolutely everything at this moment in time.
I feel like trying to tell anybody about anything is as hard as trying to tell somebody about a dream I had ~3 weeks ago.
If I were to see a therapist I’m afraid that they wouldn’t see what’s wrong with me because they don’t know me and I can’t articulate what’s wrong with me.
They would just meet me and think I’m a boring lazy person with nothing wrong with them.
I feel like any friends that I have are my friends because at one point in time that isn’t now, or any time in the future, I didn’t come off as boring/lazy.
I feel like if I weren’t/didn’t feel inarticulate I wouldn’t be afraid of anything.
Or I would still be afraid of everything but I would be able to explain to people why I’m saying that I’m afraid.
People don’t seem to understand why I’m afraid of the things I say I’m afraid of.
My biggest fear is not being able to convince people that I’m afraid and I can’t convince anybody that I’m afraid so I’m afraid of everything.
Carrie sat down at the table, across from Sam. a waitress approached to take their order. Carrie ordered a coffee and studied the waitress. Her hair was brown, held up in a messy ponytail. Perfectly trimmed, rosy nails impatiently tapped the notepad she held as Sam fumbled with his menu.
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My friend Kelsey wrote this, I gave her the idea to use “cheddar” as money
P.S. came up with the names too, practically wrote it myself tbh.
Maybe I’ll do another fucking myspace survey
I don’t know why more people don’t look up authors that they like on youtube.
I watched several videos from authors I like recently and they all have ~100-200 views and ~2-4 likes and ~2-4 dislikes.
Started using “Sharp Teeth and Hair All Over” again to show my ‘fun side’.
I feel like I stopped using it because people would ask me if I was a furry.
At this point I don’t know why I would be discouraged by that.
Seems funny to me.
I just imagined myself laughing and making milk coming out of my nose as a reaction to somebody asking me if I am a furry.
Seems funny to me.
Powerviolence has been spamming my last.fm for the past several months.
Last.fm thinks that “Surf Nazis Must Die” is my favorite band.
I just added the word “Powerviolence” to firefox’s dictionary.
I just added “firefox” to firefox’s dictionary.
Just thought for ~2 seconds about throwing my septum ring away.
This blog post is a live feed of stupid shit from my head.
My apologies re: dry spell
im a broken person
THE BANANAS, MOST HITTER BAND OUT
75 questions you’ve probably never…
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1. First thing you wash in the shower?
waterfloss
2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
its a black hoodie and on the left wrist it says “prep sportswear”
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
hm yeah
4.Do you plan outfits?
yea, mostly b/c i wear it for like the next month
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
RIGHT now i feel ‘ok’/nostalgic re:myspace survey
6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red?
chair
7. Do you say aim or a-i-m?
i say ‘aim’ but am going to start saying ‘a-i-m’
8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
feels hard to answer this question, reminds me of 7th-8th grade when i would maybe put off doing the survey until i could think of something ‘good’/’funny’ to say that made me seem more funny/interesting/attractive
9. Did you meet anybody new today?
“Jackson Niewland accepted your friend request. Write on Jackson’s wall.”
10. What are you craving right now?
crab punch
11. Do you floss?
waterfloss
12. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
hmmmmmmm, lengua quesadillas $5 even at the taco truck next to my school
13. When was the last time you talked on aim?
probably 2006
14. Are you emotional?
lol yeh
15. Would you dance to the taco song?
hmmmmmm
16. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
hmmmmmmmmmm yes
17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
neither, i sort of put alot of it in my mouth trying to avoid my teeth, then i sort of suck on it for a while
18. Do you like your hair?
feel self conscious abt my hair most of the time
19. Do you like yourself?
i would maybe hang out w/ me but also get annoyed w/ me and avoid my calls alot
20. Have you ever met a celebrity?
various ‘indie’ celebrities
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
I really like cottage cheese
22. What are you listening to right now?
this question makes me feel like changing the music i’m listening to right now so i can be less embarrassed about posting an honest answer
23. How many countries have you visited?
never left the country/only left my time zone once
24. Are your parents strict?
lol
25. Would you go sky diving?
hm yes
26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
hm yes
27. Would you throw potatoes at him?
hmm, only if he ‘wouldn’t shut up about it’ in a playful sort of way
28. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
nothing sparkly
29. Have you ever been in a castle?
no
30. Do you rent movies often?
i have mostly bypassed the need to rent movies via netflix instant view
31. Who sits in behind you in your math class?
Kelsey Spooobs
32. Have you made a prank phone call?
yes
33. Do you own a gun?
no
34. Can you count backwards from 74?
i can’t
35. Who are you going to be with tonight?
dog izzie
36. Brown or white eggs?
idgaf
37. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
no, should pick out a new septum ring or something b4 they go out of business
38. Ever been on a train?
yes i like trains in a non-autistic sort of way
39. Ever been in love?
feel like i’ve been ‘in love’ yeah
40. Do you have a cell-phone?
i have like 4 cell phones (JK)
41. Are you too forgiving?
um no?
42. Do you use chap stick?
no i used to but it started getting ‘out of hand’
43. What is your best friend doing tomorrow?
hmmm, eating and/or wanting to eat chips
44. Can you use chop sticks?
im good at chop sticks yeah
45. Ever have cream puffs?
yes, i feel indifferent about them
46. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
yes have you ever seen the second one?
47. What was the last question you asked?
yes have you ever seen the second one?
48. What was the last CD you bought?
i think i bought an iji cd several months ago
49. Boys or girls?
haha
50. What is your bus number for school?
hmmmmm
51. Is your hair curly?
yes curly
52. Last time you cried?
~2 days ago
53. Ever walked into a wall?
probably. first read this as “ever walked into a mall?”
54. Do looks matter?
sure
55. Have you ever bought anything from Pac Sun?
no, should pick up a septum ring or something from them before they go out of business
56. Have you ever slapped someone?
yeh
57. Favorite time of the year?
i guess i like summer, ‘duh’
58. Favorite color?
could be orange or something
59. Are you sarcastic?
occasionally w/ friends
60. Do you have any tattoos?
yes 4
61. The last person you held hands with?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm idk probably addie a few months ago
62. Do you sleep with the TV on?
i rarely have the TV on
63. Where was your default picture taken at?
my cousin’s house w/ her baby
64. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
yes probably
65. Do you like your life right now?
i like aspects of my life right now
66. How often do you talk on the phone?
rarely talk on the phone
67. What is your favorite animal?
idk i don’t dislike any animals
68. What was the most recent thing you bought?
lengua quesadilla $5 even at the taco truck by my school
69. Do you have good vision?
i have weird vision.
70. Can you hula hoop?
hm no
71. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
yeah idgaf
72. Do you have a job?
hm no
73. Can you handle the truth?
hm maybe. seems like when i’m asked this, the truth is presented in a way that makes me feel like i ‘cant handle it’
74. What are you wearing?
black jeans and white t
75. Have you ever crawled through a window?
yeah i’ve crawled through a window
Are you dumb?
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